A Walk on the Trail

A couple shots from yesterday's hike with Grandma, Hayden, and Bug.

12:33 Epiphany

Yes. It's 12:33.

But regardless of the time, regardless of the day or month, or whatever, I have had an epiphany.

I came across a picture just now.

A picture that literally haunts me straight to my core.

You'd think it were a picture of a lost loved one or perhaps a ghost with the way I'm talking.

But it's not.

It's actually a picture of...

Well...

Me.

Not a scary picture really to those of you who don't know me well.

But to me...it's absolutely heart-wrenching...mortifying even.

This is a picture of me on move-in day my freshman year of college.

This is also a picture of me at my smallest.

Now to most of you I'm sure I don't look that small. But for me this was "small".

In this picture I had just lost close to 50 pounds.

And what's better is back then I still felt HUGE.

Looking at this now, looking at how absolutely incredible I look compared to how I look, how I FEEL now. It's an awful feeling. AWFUL.

I am tired ALL THE TIME. I have ZERO motivation. I'm sluggish and boring and I can't remember the last time I've had an adventure or was spontaneous. And that has nothing to do with a baby and everything to do with ME.

In fact, thinking about it, I haven't been very ME in a long time.

I'm spontaneous. I like to go on random road trips, I love to travel, and roam. I like to play and find new things. I like surprises and adventures. And I haven't been that way in far too long.

And it's hard to say I blame being this way on being fat. But I actually do. As weird as that sounds. I've lost the very thing that makes me the most ME.

For the last year and a half or so I have had a hard time looking in a mirror. And when I do it's never for vein reasons but for self conscious reasons.

I'm the biggest I've ever been. I feel as bad as I look. I don't wear makeup unless going somewhere of importance. I don't get excited about shopping or even finding an outfit to wear. I. AM. MISERABLE.

My drive is at an all time low, due to stress. And my stress makes me eat. And eating makes me bigger. And getting bigger makes me stress.

Catch 22.

But that is over now. It's done. No more excuses no more "I can'ts".

Because tomorrow I'm going to post that picture EVERYWHERE.

On my phone, on my laptop, on the FRIDGE. On a fucking billboard if I have to. A constant reminder of the ME I used to be. The healthier, happier, pick-up-and-go, not-a-care-in-the-world Kerin.

Watch out world.

I'm coming back.

Fail Blog

I have totally been failing as a blogger lately. Between the non stop craziness, the sleeplessness, the happy, the sad, and a 7 month old things have been crazy bananas.

I have so much going on and so much to share.

I have an interview set up for the PERFECT job.

I have my first paid engagement shoot with a close friend. Which I am beyond excited for.

We are in the middle of finishing up a family yard sale.

My nephew just had a birthday and we've been celebrating that too.

Bug decided to take up crawling in the last week.

Or whatever this is.

I've got some catching up in life to do so for now I'll leave you with a little photo lovin.

Yard Sale Table Makeover

ARE YOU READY?!?

I'm so pumped to share this with you because I'm so stoked excited elated how this project came out.

I'm also probably definitely too proud...like, run-around-the-house-waving-my-A+-in-everybody's-face-super-glue-to-the-fridge proud.

Now let me rate this project first.

I'd have to say on a scale of 1-10, 10 being I have my own show on HGTV, my home improvement skills are somewhere around a 7 or so. I'm fairly handy...just saying.

I couldn't do plumbing or electrical to save my life, but I did go to school for interior design, I watch HGTV like nobody's business, and I've done a number of projects with family and friends (primarily my Dad).

I'd have to rate this project a 2 in regards to difficulty.

And it's also a two day project. Not that it takes two days to complete but there's some dry time.

So I know I'm killing you with the suspense...here we go..drum roll please!

How ya like them apples?!

I'm so in love with the end result.

So how did I get to the end result you ask?

Excellent question.

I sanded the ever-living shit out of it. Using medium grit sandpaper and a weeks worth of motivation. It took a lot longer than I anticipated simply due to all the small details in the piece.

I dusted off the table with a dry paper towel to remove all the debris and then followed up with a lightly dampened paper towel.

Now from here I would normally use a primer. Primer is good for more than one reason, it helps the coats on top of it adhere to whatever you're painting and helps eliminate the need for more coats.

I however did not have primer on hand so I did two coats waiting a day in between. And had I had a small roller on hand I likely would have rolled all the flat surfaces to avoid seeing brush strokes. But to be honest they really aren't the noticeable. I'm also thinking about replacing the hardware, but for now I will sit back and love it.

For 5 bucks and a couple hours of my time...I'm so so happy with the outcome!

Now tell me, whaddaya think?!

Yard Saling At Its Finest

Can we talk for a second about how ridiculously awesome yard sales are?

So for boyfriend and I money's a bit tight, and there are just certain things I can't justify paying for when I'm pinching pennies.

So Bug has been VERY active the last couple weeks, to the point where we were having a few accidents and I was losing my damn mind. The one thing I needed that would really help was a play center or exersaucer or something so that I'd be able to throw her in there for a little and get stuff done without needing to worry what she was bumping into or falling off of or into or whatever.

I wasn't able to accomplish anything unless she was down for a nap and her 4.8 million toys weren't cutting it. But I sincerely couldn't justify (or afford) throwing down 80 bucks for an exersaucer. So we went to second hand stores. The selection was more than limited and they were still asking 40-60 bucks. Hell to the no.

Well on our way to apple picking the other day Daddy's eagle eyes spotted one at a yard sale. We practically tokyo drifted to a stop and I was out of the car and like galloping over to it.

So I'm getting closer and closer to it and soon realized it was actually the one I WANTED, the crazy ridiculous one that retails OVER a 100 bucks.

I'm walking over to it expecting there to be a 20-30 dollar price on it, and with my bartering skills at the ready I step up to it.

There's a littttle tiny sticker on it, and how much was she asking?

10 bucks.

10 FREAKING BUCKS.

The thing looked practically brand new, and was in far better condition than any of the ones at the second hand stores, on top of the fact that it's not even outdated, they still sell this one in store.

I wasn't even going to bargain, 10 bucks is just too good a price, anything lower and I'd be low balling her.

So now I'm wondering if it's too good to be true, maybe the lights and sounds don't work or something.

The woman, sweet as can be, came over telling me how much her daughters loved it and that EVERYTHING STILL WORKS.

HA "I'll take it!" I practically shouted.

So she's collapsing it and dusting it off for me and SWEAR TO PETE she looks at me and says "Ya know what, it's kinda dirty, you have have it for 7."

SAY WHAT NOW?! You just bartered yourself down?!

It's not even dirty really. And I would have washed it regardless once I brought it home. HOLY CRAP.

So this is it:

We ALSO got a stand up tent for all our camping trips next summer, and since daddy and I love camping so much my mom bought it for us. It's a bit smaller then I would ideally like, it's probably a 10x10 single room, but for now, it will work great for us and is really all we need. It was in great condition and the sweet guy also threw in a giant ass bag of books for Bug. Holla.

We got Rush Hour 3, The Departed, and American Gangster (all for Daddy) for a total of 4 bucks.

And finally my mom came across a table for us, she had good bones and beautiful lines but needed a little TLC. She got this table for 5 bucks.

Now, I took it upon myself this Friday and Saturday to overhaul it. But that little DIY project you'll need to wait until tomorrow to see. :) Gotta keep you coming back for more right?

I cannot WAIT to show you, it honestly turned out better than I expected and I really love it, partially because it was a labor of love but also because it looks so different and fantastic. Look back tomorrow to see how it turned out!

Wordless Wednesday

Apple and Pumpkin Picking

So yesterday Boyfriend, Bug, and I went pumpkin and apple picking with Aunty Jen and Aunty Lindsay.

It was awesome. The weather was fantastic. It couldn't have been better.

I love fall. It is without question my favorite season, the leaves changing, the comfy sweater weather, apple and pumpkin everything, candles, blankets.

In my book, nothing tops it. Fall is my happy.

So this whole day was the epitome of that.

We got a daddy, mommy, and baby pumpkin and a whole bunch of apples. Daddy bought a yummy Apple Crisp and I bought a chocolate & caramel covered apple.

Holy delicious.

I only have a couple pictures for now but there are more to come, especially with the present that Aunty Lindsay got Bug that I may or may not be obsessed with.

But for now these will have to do.

Creamy Ranch Crockpot Chicken

Remember how I always say my favorite recipes are the easy ones?

This recipe is the epitome of easy.

Ingredients:

1 Package of Chicken Breast (I used just over a pound)
2 Cans of Cream of Chicken
1/2 Packet of Ranch Seasoning
1/3 Cup of Sour Cream
Cheese to Taste or as Desired (I used half a mozzarella cheese stick...think I'm joking? I'm not..we were out of cheese)

Instructions:

Quite literally just plop it together.

Ahh the beauty of crockpots.

I put my chicken in first, followed by the cream of chicken, sour cream, and then ranch seasoning. I added the cheese towards the end. Then I gave it quick stir and then stirred occasionally every 2 hours or so and Voila!

You can put it on pasta, rice, or even mashed potatoes. I used egg noodles because we always have more than enough of it to go around.

It cooks for about 5-6 hours on low and that's about it. Easy as can be.

It was almost too easy. I think next I'm going for the crock pot beef stew....Yum. One of my all time fall/winter favorites.

What's your favorite crockpot recipe?

Lemme hear em!

Why Me?

Can we talk about the shit that only happens to me?

As we've discussed previously I'm kind of a hazard.

I never cease to amaze myself sometimes I swear.

Allow me to elaborate further with the following story:

The other day when I was giving bug a bath, I was cleaning the tub of her things when I decided that there wasn't enough room in the shower for her other bottle of Johnson's and Johnson's (and to be completely honest, I'm not entirely fond of the smell...the purple bedtime bath and the yellow classic one are my two favorites...but I digress) so I pick up the bottle.

The bottle, mind you, is not wet. It is also in no way slippery or anything of the sort but my dumb ass managed to drop it.

Now I've dropped shampoo/soap/you-name-it bottles 4 bajillion-million times in the shower.

And my life usually flashes before my eyes followed by the overwhelming fear of crushed toes and some riverdance-esk foot flailing action.


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But in all those times not ONCE has anything happened to the bottle. Never ever.

Wanna know what happened this time around?

Feast Your Eyes:

This shit.

How is this even real life?

It just committed suicide.

And while part of me was all like..."Oh no, oh why?! Why meeeeee!?"

The other part was all like "Fine by me, I didn't really like ya that much anyway."

But still.

Stuff like this, would only happen to me.

Where Does The Time Go?

Bug had a doctors appointment yesterday, Doc said she's healthy as a horse. Right on track with weight (14.09 lbs) and above average in height (27 inches up 2 inches from our last visit!).

Daddy's not very tall, he's about 5'8", he'll tell you 5'9" but that's not the case.

I'm 5'7 1/2" and have a veryyy tall family. My mom is 5'9" and my dad is 6'3" but boyfriend's family runs on the short to average side so it's a toss up as to what she's going to be.

Both his side as well as my own have issues with weight so both boyfriend and I are VERY adamant about watching hers. And I vow to be that way with her until the day she is no longer living in my house and in my care. I refuse to allow my babies to struggle through life the way I did. So hearing the doctor say she is average and right on track with weight makes my heart sing, even if she is only 6 months.

So between editing photos, going to doctors, spending time with family, and a sick Daddy and now a sick Bug...my life has been bonkers.

At least something went right today.

I called Summer Infant the makers of our baby monitor, which decided to stop working this past week, and told them we had a problem.

The really nice gentleman on the phone Everett (who I proceeded to call Ed the entire phone call due to my little deaf ears) said that he would replace our monitor, which is only 5 months old, with a brand spankin' new monitor.

And oh, did I mention it's the newest version?! Hell ya!

When boyfriend and I went to buy the monitor it was severely discounted which we deemed to be due to a newer model replacing it coming out soon. Sure enough...that was the case!

I'm so freaking excited that ONE..just ONE little tiny insignificant thing went right, that I want to shout from the rooftops how awesome Summer Infant is.

Now if only everything else in my life would follow suit.

I finished editing the engagement shoot pictures which I will be sure to leave at the end of this post. I also added a little something extra for her which I will share with you, just because she was so wonderful.

But right now I'm in need of some hibernation.

So I'm gunna sit on the couch in my PJ's and slippers, with a warm fuzzy blanket, a fire, and a giant bowl of soup while little bug snoozes away upstairs...

:)

Ready, Set....

I am like the happiest person on earth right now. The engagement shoot went AMAZING. First of all I couldn't have asked for a better, sweeter, more loving first couple to shoot than these two.

I was beaming the entire time taking their photos. And I cannot WAIT to show you what I've done so far.

Ready?

I am so out of my mind happy with these pictures so far. Sometimes I wish I had a bit more faith in myself. This being my first official non-family shoot I couldn't be more excited.

A big huge thanks to Meagan and Danny for being adorable and being the best guinea pigs ever. THANK YOU.